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Note to SELF: START.
JOURNALING TO OVERCOME Self-sabotage.
Surprise, surprise, another day goes by and that project I put off till the last minute sits unfinished, while I wonder why I am not where I want to be in life.
Seeming scenario: Avoidant person on the run. From what? INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. It’s the creative output that pushes me forward, but the fear of vulnerability that holds me back. Fear of being seen. That’s real. What if I’m dumb? What if I don’t know what I’m talking about? What if I’m judged, criticized, mess up, am not prepared for success, am not ready, am stupid. STOP.
See the intrusive thoughts as they fire off and pass by to waste your precious time. It’s your responsibility to see them and put them in their place. Separate yourself from them. Separate yourself from your fears. You are not attached to failure, you choose to attach yourself to whatever you obsess over. Whatever fires, wires. Whatever you do becomes a pattern. If you think you’re not, you are NOT. If you think you can, ACT. ACT in defiance of fear. Over and over. Tell your fear to get in the back seat and buckle up because you’re driving now.
I literally can’t. Can’t this or that. And now I can’t start, just telling myself I’m stuck. It’s an avoidance technique of maintaining comfort.
