Where I am one year post-op

Dec. 8th, 2022

Today Memories popped up in my notifications. It was a photo of me post-op cervical cancer removal.

I look back and honestly think I dissociated from my body to handle the stress, and just powered through it like I do🫠 Last December, I was working a full-time job and I’m pretty positive I went back to work in Chicago the day after I was put under anesthesia and operated on to remove cervical cancer from my body. It was natural for me to detach from feelings and to just keep going. Energizer Bunny style.🪫

Needless to say, I burnt out, crashed, and shut down. Psychosomatic stress symptoms popped up and I found myself having nervous breakdowns almost daily.

I needed to reframe this house from the foundation up. I started going after expansion in my life like it was selfishly mine to claim. I decided I needed to grasp tightly to what I had going for me, and let go of a lot more.

I kept sorting through layers of trauma in therapy, establishing a new support network within community online/off. I finally got on anxiety meds and taking my mental health seriously.